0-62 seems ever so fast when you are timing a car, when measured in seconds. But in days, when you are waiting to see somebody, it seems like an eternity. Literally.
She’s come into my World out of nowhere. One minute I am minding my own business, and the next, we are at the cinema, on a friends-date, semi-flirting, in the dark, sharing popcorn, sharing a drink, laughing, gazing into each others eyes, wanting to kiss each other and feeling that ‘electricity’ when you meet someone for the first time.
What film did we go and see? What was it was about?! Funnily enough, I can’t remember!
She makes me smile. She makes me laugh. She embarrasses me. She makes me do crazy things. She looks after me. She’s cooked for me. She’s so my type; shorter, brunette, sexy, intelligent, gorgeous, mature, loves me for being me… and she has the perfect smile and laugh. That’s my favourite part about her.
I will not disclose anything too personal on here, but with our relationship, there are a few ties, and I know it will be tough in the near future – But did anybody say life was plain sailing when we were born? I certainly don’t remember agreeing and signing to any terms and conditions when I was born, weighing 8lb 12oz and clutching my first BIC.
Life is complicated. Well it can be. So it will be hard at some point. For me, I think it will be tricky and somewhat challenging during this part of my ‘youth’, but hey ho, I’m putting in 110% effort. I’m not giving up on this whatsoever!
I’ve had relationships in the past, which have hurt me, most of us have. We constantly remind ourselves what its like to feel that heartbreak, especially in a new relationship – This is the body’s way of defending itself incase it gets hurt again; its a psychological barrier which rises when the heart has been broken.
After being hurt, you don’t want to get into another relationship for the fear of being rejected, hurt, let down etc. I normally have the feeling of anxiety when I begin to feel it’s the start of seeing somebody new. Having them as a girlfriend or making it official seems to bring my own personal barrier up quicker than a bolt of lightning!
…but, this time, it’s different. It’s all happened so fast, so quick, but it doesn’t feel too fast at all. It’s unique, it’s new, it’s exciting, it’s exhilarating, it’s breathtaking, it’s the best feeling I’ve ever had. Oh yeah, and it feels so natural! Have I known this person in another life? I’m sure of it.
I know we don’t know what the future will bring for each and every one of us, that’s impossible, hence why the British weather forecasters get such a slating, but one thing for sure, is that I know I want to hold onto these feelings, with this particular person, for as long as I can.
If you read this, which I’m sure you will do, then the wait will be so worth it. Every day that passes makes me happier because I am one day closer to seeing you, but sadder, because it’s another day without you.
3 down and 59 to go.