So it’s been a week since my last post and where has the time gone. I feel like my feet have barely touched the ground.
Of course, now, the majority of my time is taken up by my new-found love! That’s my job, but also a certain person too!
It’s that feeling I have always been after – The thought in your head on a Sunday night before work the next day used to be ‘oh god, fuck this job!’ … now it’s ‘I can’t wait to go to work tomorrow!’
For those of you who think it’s a little sad, trust me, you are just filled with unwanted jealousy! When you have that moment in your life – You will look back at a time when you were so sad, miserable and alone in your old job and wonder why the hell you didn’t leave sooner?
This is because we become so comfortable in our jobs and are scared of change. Some of my ex-colleagues have been stuck in their same role for almost 20 years and they have become so miserable. The job has literally sucked the life out of them.
If you are reading this, you must get out!
I think I have been slightly battling some negative thoughts this week. Don’t panic, for those are worrying, because there is no need. I am alive, well and not depressed.
It’s just nice to write them down and tell who ever read this about them.
So, I suppose I have been like an old carton of milk this week – Off. (my favourite joke at the moment).
Although my relationship, work, friends and family are all amazing and I wouldn’t change anything for anything or anyone at the moment – I still feel a little strange.
I am learning more and more about depression every day. I feel my body is constantly battling with it – Sometimes more than others. I know it doesn’t agree with emotion. For years I have struggled with emotion and I think I have realised now why.
Depression has been in my body for years and it’s tried to grasp onto a strong feeling such as emotion and it’s tried to use this to bring me down quicker than flight MH370.
That’s awful. I know. But it’s the first thing which came into my head.
Anyway, enough for one week!
It’s been tough to write this week. It hasn’t come as naturally as it normally does.