I took a trip up Rodney’s Pillar yesterday with Fin, my step-sister, I suppose, well that’s the easiest way to describe our relationship! Oh and Troy. The dog.
It’s a hard-ish 45-minute walk, for those who are unfamiliar to the area. For those who are familiar, it’s relatively easy but not after a few weeks of filling your body with Turkey, Terry’s Chocolate Oranges and many a bottle o’Becks Blue.
It just made me think, hence the post-walk blog post now after a little time for reflection.
What I’ve been experiencing these last 2 months has been phenomenal. It’s so hard to describe when someone comes into your life like they have done with me and you’ve just been bombarded with emotions, mostly good!
I guess it’s good sometimes just to get away from any situation, think, breathe, calm yourself, relax and just contemplate it all.
The Pillar is a great way to take your mind away from everything, apart from the burning sensation in your quads!
But on a serious note, without too much personal detail, I’ve been finding things a little difficult and I’ve struggled this last week. Anxiety, stress and paranoia have come to revisit my mind temporarily but it’s manageable.
Some things just take more time, perseverance, determination and hard work. Work smarter, not harder, Sam.
When you are bombarded by said emotions as mentioned above, your mind is somewhat paralysed with the overwhelming feelings they each individually omit.
You do things which may hurt people.
You say things which may upset people.
You ask things people won’t like.
You think things you don’t want to ask.
But for some reason, you feel compelled to action these thoughts. And the moment you do, your brain thinks one thing, and one thing only.
But… for those on the receiving end. Know that it’s NEVER malicious. It’s never intentional. It makes people sad when they don’t want to do something but also feel compelled to do it.
And then do it. And then regret it. Almost immediately.
It’s just new. It’s exciting. It’s hard to handle sometimes. Sometimes we are irrational and we don’t think before we act.
All we can do is try.
Make others smile with our own unique actions.
Make them aware how much we love them.