It’s been 9 months since I started writing my blog because that’s the time I last had ‘proper’ depression.
Wow. I’ve come so far. It’s great when someone else shows your how proud they are of you but when you feel it yourself, boy is it all worth it.
9 months ago I was depressed, suicidal, felt worthless… blah blah blah… all the usual shit that I don’t want to repeat… but now I feel almost 100 times better.
I have a purpose in life.
I have a girl in my life.
I love going to work.
I miss someone so much that it hurts when I am not with her.
I feel less stressed and anxious about life.
I have managed to control my anger and thoughts.
What’s happened to me? It’s like the old Sam has been replaced with a new one. Version 2. I’m still the same handsome stranger that you all knew before but it’s like I have had a change in lifestyle – Big time.
The same person who prompted me last time has prompted me again to write this blog. Now it’s been the same person twice in a row, I will make a conscious effort to write one a week.
This person has been reading my blog and said it’s amazing what I have conquered in these past months since I started blogging.
I have given up alcohol for 9 months for christ sake! AMAZING! In 90 days time it will be 1 whole year. Incredible.
Yes, people run 26.2 miles in the London marathon but this is still a hard task. A marathon takes 4-5 hours for most people and it is physically and mentally exhausting – This is the same but on a much longer scale.
This is a quick one for now, as it’s past my bedtime. I don’t want to keep waffling but this spontaneous and impromptu post is a dedication to the person who sticks by me, unconditionally loves me and is always there for me.
Even when I am an asshole (a nice one!)
Until next time (within a week!)